The Spirit Knows The Way

Okay, so this week has been a doozie. I mean if it wasn't one thing it was another. My car needed some work. Earlier in the week I tried to coordinate ways to drop kids at school, get car to the mechanic, get a ride home, get kids picked up from school, get ride back to the mechanic and live happily ever after. Okay that was as much of a headache coordinating as I'm sure it was for you to read it. So frustrated that my plan wasn't coming together, I vented. The person who's ear I was bending said "why don't you just hang out while the car's at the mechanic? " Like the children standing at the red sea, my frustration lifted and I was able to see dry land.

I dropped the kids at school and head to the mechanic. From his garage you can see on the horizon this beautiful picturesque beach. The weather is amazing. Blue skies, cloud free. Just warm enough to not need a jacket. And nothing but hours on my hand. What's a girl to do....

Grab her backpack, iPod, eReader and stylish shades. The plan was to drop the car with Mr.mechanic-get-it-done-by-five and then grab some breakfast. Next to catch the bus to the library waaaaaaay down there. Heading to the beach seemed out of the plan because I had no blanket or chair since I was walking and needed to travel light. Plus the distance from the mechanic to the beach appeared extremely far, hilly and just too risky. I needed to stay in a good reception area and go somewhere that I could charge my battery on my android phone if necessary. So I sit at the bus stop. And I sit. And sit. And...well you get the picture.

Then this man passes me with his bag and carefreeness. I watch him walk and head down the hill. I'm curious. Don't know why. Just am. So I get up and walk towards the hill.
As I begin to ascend this steep hill. I see oasis. Its the beach. See this hill curves around making the distance shorter. AND... as I'm walking towards my bliss, what else do I see? A LIBRARY! Not opening until noon. Perfect. I can cruise the beach for a while and then go to the library to recharge. Figuratively and literally. As I'm walking this hill, I'm noticing my entire countenance is changing. I'm relaxed and feeling like I'm in my lane. Needless to say, I enjoy my day of hours to waste.

Lessons to take from my day. Recognize when your plan is not working and be open to change courses. Just follow the path that feels right, It'll lead you where you need to go. Sometimes God will make your path curve in order to get you to your blessings quicker. Where you thought it would take you longer to reach your destiny, it may actually be right around the corner. Make time to just sit and watch it all unfold right before you. Travel light, leave the weight back there. Don't worry so much about the safest plan. Life's transforming moments often come when you step out of the boat and start walking towards your destiny.

Yours in Purpose

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Reflections

Each day, I believe a new aspect, a new cell of self awareness is revealed to us in our day to day interactions with people and circumstances. In each interaction or reaction to a circumstance, we learn who we are and who we are becoming.

Earlier this week, I received a phone call from a friend. He had not called me in several months. We had crossed paths a few times. I noticed when we did, his interaction with me felt strained and tense. Which was weird for me because he is a leader in the religious community , and I guess I expected more from him, givn his title. But its important to remember, he is still human regardless of the title he carries.

So this phone call came at the worst possible time. It was not one of my better days. I was feeling extremely fatigued from the mental battle that I was engaged in. I was trying to hold it together but I was a dam with weak levies that evening. He said his peace. I said mine. He was not compassionate in his tone or delivery. In the seconds between saying good bye and hanging up, I knew our ties were at that moment severed.

Fastforward to mid week. I am putting out one of the many fires I'm in charge of from day to day. I asked someone for assistance. This person chose to respond to me with an insult, disguised as a joke. I am hurt by their remark. I realize the issue is within me, not either of these two people I've encountered.

People are people. Human. Capable of responding to life through their own hurts and insecurities. I have been guilty of this myself. God has blessed me with discernment. For a reason. In both interactions with these two people, I learned more about them and myself. Why should I get so bent out of shape when these two circumstances were just revelations of who these people really are. And who I am. God was showing me who they are. My reaction to their insensitivity was a revelation of who I am. My focus needs to be on improving any gaps within my character and self image. Why take on their transference of pain, insecurity and frustration. I'm a no dumping site. But I have to set the parameters of what I will accept and react to. That's their issue, not mine. You've shown me who you are. From this point on I should no longer get caught off guard. However to be successful with these future interactions, I have to daily pour out to God and allow Him to fill me up with His truths and promises. The only accurate measuring tape or mirror that gives us a true reflection of who we are is the word of God. Align and look in it daily.

Yours in Battle,

ndonpurpose

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