Reflections

Each day, I believe a new aspect, a new cell of self awareness is revealed to us in our day to day interactions with people and circumstances. In each interaction or reaction to a circumstance, we learn who we are and who we are becoming.

Earlier this week, I received a phone call from a friend. He had not called me in several months. We had crossed paths a few times. I noticed when we did, his interaction with me felt strained and tense. Which was weird for me because he is a leader in the religious community , and I guess I expected more from him, givn his title. But its important to remember, he is still human regardless of the title he carries.

So this phone call came at the worst possible time. It was not one of my better days. I was feeling extremely fatigued from the mental battle that I was engaged in. I was trying to hold it together but I was a dam with weak levies that evening. He said his peace. I said mine. He was not compassionate in his tone or delivery. In the seconds between saying good bye and hanging up, I knew our ties were at that moment severed.

Fastforward to mid week. I am putting out one of the many fires I'm in charge of from day to day. I asked someone for assistance. This person chose to respond to me with an insult, disguised as a joke. I am hurt by their remark. I realize the issue is within me, not either of these two people I've encountered.

People are people. Human. Capable of responding to life through their own hurts and insecurities. I have been guilty of this myself. God has blessed me with discernment. For a reason. In both interactions with these two people, I learned more about them and myself. Why should I get so bent out of shape when these two circumstances were just revelations of who these people really are. And who I am. God was showing me who they are. My reaction to their insensitivity was a revelation of who I am. My focus needs to be on improving any gaps within my character and self image. Why take on their transference of pain, insecurity and frustration. I'm a no dumping site. But I have to set the parameters of what I will accept and react to. That's their issue, not mine. You've shown me who you are. From this point on I should no longer get caught off guard. However to be successful with these future interactions, I have to daily pour out to God and allow Him to fill me up with His truths and promises. The only accurate measuring tape or mirror that gives us a true reflection of who we are is the word of God. Align and look in it daily.

Yours in Battle,

ndonpurpose

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